Over the weekend I was cleaning out my closet and found a couple old journals. Talk about a major flash back!! It was an odd thing to read through old entries and be reminded of the dark encompassing depression that ruled for my life for so long. I vividly remember writing those feelings and thoughts down, and yet it feels so foreign to me, like that is someone else who wrote those things down, not me.⠀⠀⠀⠀I think if anyone were to read those journals they would assume the author was now living a MESS of a life, if even still alive.
Even though I lived that, it still feels so surreal that I could change THAT much, that my daily thoughts could completely shift!
So with two big journals full of pages with expressions of fear and self hatred, doubt, an overwhelming loneliness, sadness and confusion….. I think it’s time to add a NEW WRITTEN RECORD of TRUTH. ⠀⠀⠀
~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~• What I know now ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•
I know that I have an infinite potential and ability to do GREAT things in this life.
I know God sent me here for a PURPOSE.
I know I can do ANYTHING!!
I know that even though life is far greater now than I EVER imagined it could be,
I know God has EVEN BETTER things in store for me.
I know I have a lot to offer, I can add value and leave this world a better place.
I know I can be the wife my husband deserves and the mom my kids deserve.
I know I am loved, worthy of being loved, and gosh darn it – I’m pretty awesome.~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•
I’m writing this down because if YOU struggle with depression, feelings of self doubt, and your life is filled with fear and a lack of confidence. I just want you to know….. I was there too. I remember wondering if I would ever pull out of the darkness as I couldn’t see a light at the end of the tunnel.
But just because you’re struggling now, doesn’t mean you always will. Keep moving forward, align yourself with God, take comfort in knowing that everything that happens is for your highest good. And know that one day you will write out the words – I AM AWESOME!!, and actually believe it.
I’m rooting for ya.