Can I share something with you guys?
Feeling a moment of clarity after a good therapy session this AM and a good hard workout. So I wanted to share what’s on my heart in hope that it offers some LIGHT to another.
The last week was tough for me. Well, more so Thursday thru Sunday. I found myself overly emotional and on edge as a SLEW of old negative beliefs from my past came bubbling up to the top.
I was so NOT in the mood to process & clear these old beliefs & emotions. It was inconvenient timing, and something I felt I wouldn’t be able to work thru in this life ANYWAYS, so why spend anymore energy dwelling over something I can’t control?
But it wouldn’t go away. I couldn’t stop crying over and over again throughout the weekend. I would let it all out thinking OKAY NOW I’LL BE FINE, I got it out of my system, I just needed a good cry. Next thing I know a sweet sister is standing in church sharing stories of her mother and I’m about to stand to lead the kids in a musical number and I’m BREAKING DOWN bawling, & can’t gain my composure. #embarrassing.
BUT THEN….. the sweetest experience happened Sunday night. Peace. Healing. Some closure.
& then again today, as I talked with my counselor/therapist I released the last few traces of this old thought pattern and came to an awareness of God’s LOVING INTENTION through it all.
I can’t even TELL you guys what a WEIGHT I feel LIFTED from my shoulders.
And wanna know something cool about it all?
I had been PRAYING and PRAYING for something to come into my life. And this morning I realized how much I had to FIRST release these negative thought patterns to INVITE that very thing I wanted into my life.
I hope I’m making sense. Trying to share without going into too many details. lol. But I wanted to share cuz you guys - God REALLY DOES hear and answer our prayers. I KNOW this! Everyone has their own bundle of hard & painful experiences & trials. Me too.
But the older I get the more it hits me with such awareness - those “hard times” were truly NOTHING BUT GOOD.
I don’t know what hard time YOU are having right now, but I just wanted to offer a little bit of hope & light.
• One day, it will all come together and make sense.
• One day you will see how this hard time was the only way God could bring about such a BEAUTIFUL gift and blessing into your life.
God has not forgotten you.
You are loved.
You are blessed & highly favored.
You are ENOUGH.
I promise, one day it will ALL COME together and make sense.