REFUSAL ENERGY

The last hour my hand has been furiously writing in attempt to capture the breakthroughs & thoughts of today's call with my life coach.

CHANGE YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU DETERMINE WHAT YOUR REFUSAL ENERGY IS.

I want to share a something I hope inspires you to get out of your own way. ;) It's about what my life coach calls the power of "refusal energy".

Five years ago there was a strong refusal energy in my life.

I was SO MISERABLE in my own skin and REFUSED to live life feeling that way. I was turning 29 years old and starting that last year of my 20's was a undeniable reminder of the decade I had wasted living an unhealthy lifestyle. Scared of the mystical drop off in metabolism that was SURE to befall me once my life clock hit 30, my passion for health and fitness began.

Four years ago I felt a strong refusal energy again.

We were 2 years past our bankruptcy, but barely making ends meet, and I REFUSED to spend the rest of my life worried about money. Jayson was working two jobs and we barely got to spend time together as a family. Scared life would always be paycheck to paycheck unless I took ACTION, my passion for running my own business and showing others how to do the same began.

Where is my refusal energy now? What is so wrong with where I'm at now? What is fueling me these days?

Is it a need for MORE? A need to feel worthy of love? To prove myself in some worldly way?

I admit when I started as a coach I felt a connection to business success and my self worth. I felt I had a lot to prove, to myself, and to others. I think that "NEED to succeed to feel worthy of love" can fuel a lot of people to MORE MORE MORE. But I can sincerely say thanks to a series of personal development trainings I attended in 2014, everything shifted. I know who I am. And it has nothing to do with business success or lack there of. Those things do not define me.

So again I ask, what IS fueling my drive? Where is my refusal energy coming from?

Well.......

A refusal to restrict God from breathing His goodness in my life.

I have put SO MANY limits on myself throughout my whole darn life. God was not absent in my life all those years of struggle, I was living in a way that kept God {and His blessings} at bay.

Cuz here's the truth--> God does not bless us against our will.

I REFUSE to limit myself anymore.

REFUSE TO LIMIT YOURSELF

I REFUSE to engage in self-sabotaging behaviors.

REFUSED TO ENGAGE IN SELF-SABOTAGING BEHAVIORS

I REFUSE to live beneath the person I KNOW God created me to be.

REFUSED TO LIVE BENEATH THE PERSON GOD CREATED YOU TO BE

Who am I to hold God back???

I REFUSE to live in a way that restricts the blessings God desires to bestow upon me.

So be annoyed with my workout photos. Be annoyed with my posts about Beachbody and personal development. I can live with the experience of peer judgement.

But it gives me CHILLS to think of coming face to face with God one day and owning that I didn't live up to the greatness He placed in my. I REFUSE to have THAT experience.

So I'll do what I've been doing the last four years and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. But with the clarity resulting from today's call - I'm ready to pick up the pace.

Time to see what's REALLY possible.